It’s no secret that I struggle with my weight. I yoyo diet, lose weight and then gain it again. I’ve lived years of being on a diet, falling off the wagon, going on another diet…. I gained 3 stone in pregnancy, I’d lost over 2st when I joined Slimming World when Daisy was 8 weeks old, and I now weigh less than before I was pregnant. (Just).
I’ve lost 1st 6Ib with Slimming World. It was 1st9Ib but in the last 4 weeks I’ve gained 3Ibs. I just haven’t been able to follow the plan recently.
We’re having a tough time with Daisy. She’s been teething, then poorly, then teething and now teething and poorly. We’re getting very little sleep.
Eating has become a battle, it’s stressing me out. Coping with members of the family who won’t eat vegetables (onions, peppers, courgettes, sweetcorn….) I’m having to eat separate meals. There just doesn’t seem to be enough hours in the day to carry on like this. What I need to eat for slimming world isn’t what anyone else wants to eat. I don’t even want to eat it. Thinking about what I can and can’t eat all the time is making me miserable.
I made the decision yesterday to quit Slimming World.
I feel like a failure, but I’m wasting £5 per week at the moment. I don’t think my group is as good as other ones, it’s the same people talking each meeting and the meetings take too long. Going round an enormous group and clapping everyone’s weightloss can take up to an hour. This is happening when Daisy goes to bed, when I should be at home. There is a later group – but 7:30pm is too late for me, I wait until I’ve weighed before eating, to go all day to 7:30 on very little food makes me feel ill.
I sound whiney, and I’m making a lot of excuses. I feel like I’ve failed and let everyone down. You can’t deny that the plan works, but it still doesn’t feel right for me. I don’t want to be on a plan for the rest of my life.
I’m going to adopt Steve Miller’s “Eat less and move more” philosophy.
I have a fantastic bike, and I love cycling. I need to get out on my bike more. I need to go swimming. I need to walk more. Being back at work I hardly do any walking now, I need to make more of an effort to not be so sedentary.
Easier said than done when so tired though…