It’s been a long time coming, and taken a lot of work. But 2 weeks ago I passed my driving test. Taking my test 2 days after Daisy’s christening wasn’t a great idea. I was still stressed out from the day.
I thought I’d failed in the first 30 seconds, I could feel my eyes filling with tears, but I willed myself to carry on and I just drove. And I passed. I was so shocked.
I’ve now done my pass plus and have driven to a few places in Leeds, York and Harrogate. Although I’ve been on the motorway for my pass plus, I still feel very nervous about going on – particularly because on Friday I had to almost stop at the end of the slip road going back on to the A64. I don’t think it was all my fault, the car in the left lane could have slowed down for me, it seemed to – so I accelerated, but then so did they and we were still in a 3 car lock, I slammed on as I was getting to the end of the slip road and managed to slip in behind it. Maybe I misjudged their intentions, maybe they didn’t pay any attention to me, but I think it should have been going slower than the car in the right lane anyway, and would it have been so bad so have slowed down and flashed me out?
I had to go on the A64 yesterday, but I was nervous on it. I’ve been working hard this week on not over revving, but I ended up doing that yesterday, then I took a wrong exit off the roundabout, and then I struggled with the parking. It’s like Friday’s incident has set me back weeks. I’ve lost the little bit of confidence I gained from passing.
I have enjoyed being able to drive though, I’ve been able to get out and about with Daisy easier, take her swimming, and take her to nursery.
I start back at work on Tuesday. I’m scared stiff about the drive to and from work. I’m worried about leaving her. Will she think I don’t love her any more? How on earth will I get everything done in the house, and work, and spend time with Daisy and Phil, and socialise, and my hobbies, and exercise and lose weight?